Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Eh, Whats wrong with being Chinese, Malay or even Indian? Today I had quite an experience when i was spending time talking to my special fren at ECP. One indian/malay guy, looking quite old and half dressed (like beach bump ah~ Am not good with words, so bare with me ayt.), came up to us and suddenly ask. "Are u a malay?"
I was lyke going > "WTF?". Didnt say it lah, Juz that the 3 words exclaimed in thoughts. Why would someone ask me such a question? I tot he had something against me or something. Maybe perhaps even want to "teach me a lesson or give me some kaypo talk". So i replied, "Why?". He looked quite serious and repeated his f*cking question. "Are u a malay?". I was getting kinda pissed and.. "Ya, So?"
Then the most unexpected question i got from him was... "Can u spare me $2 to buy some food?"
The 3 words repeated again in my mind. Exclaiming louder this time round. I mean so what If Im chinese? He cant ask money from a chinese? Too arrogant to show that he needs help? F*ck. I noe i look like chinese ah. But asking me whether im malay juz so that he can bring himself down and be humble to ask for money? Crap~ I wonder if i shld haf replied "Yea, im chinese. So?"
Dangg~~ So thats juz one possibility of what i was thinking at that point of time. Another one was, hey i told him im malay, does that mean i can be taken advantage of? F*ck! I kinda feel this way sometime. At times i wish i really want to fight this war of discrimination. Giving too much face to those arrogant bastards/bitches around. Hey, U push me, I'll push u back. Yea i do bitch about. Complain. Babble and swear when im thinking or juz when im alone. F*ck. I try to take care of my patience when im with people. So far i gez i havent reach the limit of expressing my rage again to anyone yet. Hopefully it stays that way.
Oh well. Bah. Im a softee. Gave him $2 but questioned him again whats wrong if im a chinese?
"Its juz a personal grudge." he said.
Again, WTF?
Oh well..... I gez we dun live in a perfect world bah.
I was lyke going > "WTF?". Didnt say it lah, Juz that the 3 words exclaimed in thoughts. Why would someone ask me such a question? I tot he had something against me or something. Maybe perhaps even want to "teach me a lesson or give me some kaypo talk". So i replied, "Why?". He looked quite serious and repeated his f*cking question. "Are u a malay?". I was getting kinda pissed and.. "Ya, So?"
Then the most unexpected question i got from him was... "Can u spare me $2 to buy some food?"
The 3 words repeated again in my mind. Exclaiming louder this time round. I mean so what If Im chinese? He cant ask money from a chinese? Too arrogant to show that he needs help? F*ck. I noe i look like chinese ah. But asking me whether im malay juz so that he can bring himself down and be humble to ask for money? Crap~ I wonder if i shld haf replied "Yea, im chinese. So?"
Dangg~~ So thats juz one possibility of what i was thinking at that point of time. Another one was, hey i told him im malay, does that mean i can be taken advantage of? F*ck! I kinda feel this way sometime. At times i wish i really want to fight this war of discrimination. Giving too much face to those arrogant bastards/bitches around. Hey, U push me, I'll push u back. Yea i do bitch about. Complain. Babble and swear when im thinking or juz when im alone. F*ck. I try to take care of my patience when im with people. So far i gez i havent reach the limit of expressing my rage again to anyone yet. Hopefully it stays that way.
Oh well. Bah. Im a softee. Gave him $2 but questioned him again whats wrong if im a chinese?
"Its juz a personal grudge." he said.
Again, WTF?
Oh well..... I gez we dun live in a perfect world bah.
Engraved at 22:18, signed off shadie
