Sunday, February 13, 2005
FUCK. Juz when im at peace. My brother's arrogance got to me. WTF SIA. My younger brother treats me as if im like crap. He thinks im his fucking fren ? Right now if he's a friend, i beat the crap out of him. It all started at the dinner table.
As usual, he always puts himself before others. Today i juz wanted to test my theory coz the past few days he haf been dissing on me alreadi. Fuck. I shld have juz accept the fact that he's an asshole who cares only but himself. Yea, U read me right. If u're in my shoes for a day, u'll notice how all the senteces that he starts would always end about himself. Another thing is that, he'll be all fucking nice and everything to my mom juz so as to get the things that he wants. Then if he gets it alreadi, he grow all fucking whiny juz like a sour bitch. Oh, thats ok really.. Wait until he dun get what he wants, then he becomes a really fucking irritating retard who spoils everyones fucking mood.
Anyway back to the story, well we usually have a ovened whole chicken on weekends. He always grabs the drumstick part of it. So I juz wanted to see if he's willing to give way, in fact he shldnt be the one deciding who gets what. Fucking crap.. Anyway, Here's how the conversation flowed when the chicken was ready.
Me: Hey, today i feel like having the drumstick.
Bro: Me also.
Me: (Looks at my sis) Eh but kakak only home on the weekends only let her have the drumstick ah. For the past 3 times u've the drumstick.
Sis: Yea.. Actually i also want.
Bro: Oh but its first come first serve what.
Me: (FUCK U LAH FIRST COME FIRST SERVE. LET OTHER PEOPLE HAVE SOME FUCKING SHARE) Oh? Let kakak and me have it ah..
Bro: (Looking pretty pissed alreadi). Eh i dun care i want it.
I cant remember what were the exact words he said, but right then my anger was alreadi piling up exponentially. He raised his voice in order to show authority. I was like. WHAT THE FUCK LAH? Nvm. I was able to control my voice though. Luckily i didnt fall for his stupid challenge. Raise ur fucking voice for all i care. I dun give a shit. I pointed at him using my index finger asking him to stop. Yea that was a fucking threat u prick. But he challenged me again and asked who am I to point at him. "Even mom & dad dun point at me". When he said that, i almost wanted to reply "who gives a fuck. Im not mom and dad." I almost wanted to reply him with 2 middle fingers. I gez at that point of time on I was alreadi on the edge. I could really feel all the rage. My blood was fueling with anger and disappointment. I can confidently say that he doesnt respect anyone in this family. What a fucking spoilt brat. If its not for my parents sitting on the table. I would have burst out alraedi. Yeah. They held me back, but im not sure for how long they can. Crap. I always fear the day when they're gone. Things will be a fucking mess. They're the only ones who are glueing this family together.
Crap. I noe keep sidetracking here. Cant even keep my thoughts together. ARghhh FRUSTRATION. ANGER. HATE. I juz wish i can vent it all out on him. Fucking arrogant, self-centered, poser and uptight fuck. KNN lah. Now i got to do last minute mugging for my circuit analysis test tmr. FUCKING PRICK SPOILT MY MOOD.
To all fucking brats/bitches reading this, U might take things for granted and try to bend every rule. Well juz a word of cautious. If u keep bending someone's patience everyday, sooner or later it will break and he/she will impale u back. FUCK IT. __
As usual, he always puts himself before others. Today i juz wanted to test my theory coz the past few days he haf been dissing on me alreadi. Fuck. I shld have juz accept the fact that he's an asshole who cares only but himself. Yea, U read me right. If u're in my shoes for a day, u'll notice how all the senteces that he starts would always end about himself. Another thing is that, he'll be all fucking nice and everything to my mom juz so as to get the things that he wants. Then if he gets it alreadi, he grow all fucking whiny juz like a sour bitch. Oh, thats ok really.. Wait until he dun get what he wants, then he becomes a really fucking irritating retard who spoils everyones fucking mood.
Anyway back to the story, well we usually have a ovened whole chicken on weekends. He always grabs the drumstick part of it. So I juz wanted to see if he's willing to give way, in fact he shldnt be the one deciding who gets what. Fucking crap.. Anyway, Here's how the conversation flowed when the chicken was ready.
Me: Hey, today i feel like having the drumstick.
Bro: Me also.
Me: (Looks at my sis) Eh but kakak only home on the weekends only let her have the drumstick ah. For the past 3 times u've the drumstick.
Sis: Yea.. Actually i also want.
Bro: Oh but its first come first serve what.
Me: (FUCK U LAH FIRST COME FIRST SERVE. LET OTHER PEOPLE HAVE SOME FUCKING SHARE) Oh? Let kakak and me have it ah..
Bro: (Looking pretty pissed alreadi). Eh i dun care i want it.
I cant remember what were the exact words he said, but right then my anger was alreadi piling up exponentially. He raised his voice in order to show authority. I was like. WHAT THE FUCK LAH? Nvm. I was able to control my voice though. Luckily i didnt fall for his stupid challenge. Raise ur fucking voice for all i care. I dun give a shit. I pointed at him using my index finger asking him to stop. Yea that was a fucking threat u prick. But he challenged me again and asked who am I to point at him. "Even mom & dad dun point at me". When he said that, i almost wanted to reply "who gives a fuck. Im not mom and dad." I almost wanted to reply him with 2 middle fingers. I gez at that point of time on I was alreadi on the edge. I could really feel all the rage. My blood was fueling with anger and disappointment. I can confidently say that he doesnt respect anyone in this family. What a fucking spoilt brat. If its not for my parents sitting on the table. I would have burst out alraedi. Yeah. They held me back, but im not sure for how long they can. Crap. I always fear the day when they're gone. Things will be a fucking mess. They're the only ones who are glueing this family together.
Crap. I noe keep sidetracking here. Cant even keep my thoughts together. ARghhh FRUSTRATION. ANGER. HATE. I juz wish i can vent it all out on him. Fucking arrogant, self-centered, poser and uptight fuck. KNN lah. Now i got to do last minute mugging for my circuit analysis test tmr. FUCKING PRICK SPOILT MY MOOD.
To all fucking brats/bitches reading this, U might take things for granted and try to bend every rule. Well juz a word of cautious. If u keep bending someone's patience everyday, sooner or later it will break and he/she will impale u back. FUCK IT. __
Engraved at 20:00, signed off shadie
