Saturday, May 20, 2006

Gooood Morning my bloggie. It might have seemed to you that i've deleted away my blog.. Well surprise surprise ! I had stashed it away to shadisticbackup.blogspot.com. Too "sayanglah" wanna delete. Anyway i had planned to continue my blog sometime in future and today is the day that i shall engrave entries into this digital diary yet again.

Im kinda overwhelmed with what had happen these past few months. I guess life does runs past you if you stop to breathe. I wasnt decisive. Unsure of what i want and what i need. Sometimes, (perhaps all the times yeah) I do think too much about something that i totally become oblivious to the things that happen infront of me.

"You are sensitive but insensitive to others' feelings". These words by Aza which striked hard upon me last week. A wake up call without a snooze. Looking at my last entry, 20th April 2005, Alot had happend in the past year. WCG ? Ve7 ? tM ? X3M ? It was really a year full of dreams playing competitively. Meeting new faces, opening new circles of trust, betrayal, segregations, cold wars. Now that things have pretty much gone back to square one, I don't have anymore energy to actually go through the cycle again. Well it was fun training and meeting up weekly. No doubt i've always enjoyed meeting my team. But ever since i lost chances to compete in competitions properly, i've lost my drive to play as well. It was either 1 guy is missing and we had to use a replacement or not prepared to compete. Yes, we do have firepower but lack teamwork and communi....... Oh crap, im typing about gaming again. Hahaha. Well whats done is done and you cant unring a bell.

Lots of things to offload but so little time. Thats it for now.