Saturday, May 27, 2006

Its 220am and i still cant sleep. I didnt sleep too well for the past weeks. Been trying to block off my thoughts and feelings for sometime but almost anywhere i go, anything i see, anything i do.. It juz reminds me of her. I've always been able to ward off my feelings or at least hide them but after i realise i've been stabbed at, its not as easy as it used to be. I wont deny that life has been empty even when she was arnd. But now, it juz feels emptier. I guess i'm still bleeding. Time will heal all wounds. That is if the wound isnt cut too deep. Mixed feelings I have indeed. Love, trust, resentment and deceit. These words clouded my mind and heart each night before i sleep. A chance was given to me. To love someone and be truly loved in return. Hmmm? Perhaps it had been more than juz a chance. It was so easy to let go last time. Why is it so hard to let go now ? I guess you did get to choke me this time round. For that, i thank you for teaching me to stop for a moment and breathe.