Wednesday, June 13, 2007

I fell asleep after gazing at the sky through my window today. Its been a long time since i had this carefree feeling. With nothing on my mind at first, i began to look back and reminisce the past 8 years that have gone by. The past molds who you are today. Be it good or bad, would affect how i am now. Thats probably how most ppl look at things anyway. lame.

Anyway its quite hard adapting to civilian life. I was pretty lost today and wasnt sure what to do at all. To be honest, a part of me is already missing tekong. I guess i rather keep busy than gazing into blank space and start wasting time flashing back into my past unnecessarily. I couldn't help it though. Whenever im away from home for too long or i have too much time on my hands, you appeared on my mind. I wont deny the fact that you still cross my mind once in awhile. A double-edge sword. Emotions like this.. only cuts the wound deeper. But such emotions sometimes only poke u like a needle juz to irritate you..
They say, what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger. hmmm.. and for my case, bitter too. Things pretty much are wrapping up lately.. I guess i ought to stop musing on fairy tales and happily-ever afters.

[[feeling so numb]]