Sunday, June 24, 2007
I guess beliefs are something strong which plays a part in our life. And often than not, it makes a difference. I would say pretty much coz i realized that 7 months back i wasn't sure of myself whether I was capable of pulling 12 chin ups or even run below 12 mins. Its when you believe in doing something for the right cause, or in this case for your own good, only then the pieces will start to come to place.
I recoursed into BMT with a clear mind that i want to become a commander. Well at that point of enlistment, i didnt have any expectations of wanting to become an officer. But towards the end, when i met people who believe in me that i could be one, it kinda hit me hard that I wasnt selected. To be honest, yes i was affected. Its quite a disappointment after knowing this and that but hell i guess there's no point wondering/questioning what i've got. Coz I remembered clearly when 2IC told everyone that its hard for someone to change his vocation, i still didnt want to give up and stood by my hopes and beliefs. At that point if what he said was true, it would definitely be a waste of time for me to go through all the shit and get nowhere out of the service line. The only thing that kept me from OOC from bmt again was because i didnt want to put my beliefs and others at meaningless value. Well im going to enter a new phase yet again. To hope for a cross over is something i want but preparing myself physically and mentally for ASLC would be a better choice. Expectations and aims are similar but they are totally different in the level of disappointments if they werent met. Somehow this hopeful feeling that have been lingering since the start of BMT is kinda giving me the drive to excel even more. Anyway at the end of the day, its not about doing the best in everything but giving my best in everything i do.
I cant describe how patriotic im feeling at the moment. I question myself why dont i juz sign on that dotted line. Im actually looking forward to field camps, missions, navigations and SOC(for real, i actually dreamt i did SOC under 9mins lor). The thought of it, sounds really fun. bah, maybe the monday blues have yet to come. >_>
Anyways, before i embark on my new trail of life.. To all my friends and family who have stood by me, i would like to take this opportunity to thank you for all the moral support and care that was given to me.
[[Against all odds]]
I recoursed into BMT with a clear mind that i want to become a commander. Well at that point of enlistment, i didnt have any expectations of wanting to become an officer. But towards the end, when i met people who believe in me that i could be one, it kinda hit me hard that I wasnt selected. To be honest, yes i was affected. Its quite a disappointment after knowing this and that but hell i guess there's no point wondering/questioning what i've got. Coz I remembered clearly when 2IC told everyone that its hard for someone to change his vocation, i still didnt want to give up and stood by my hopes and beliefs. At that point if what he said was true, it would definitely be a waste of time for me to go through all the shit and get nowhere out of the service line. The only thing that kept me from OOC from bmt again was because i didnt want to put my beliefs and others at meaningless value. Well im going to enter a new phase yet again. To hope for a cross over is something i want but preparing myself physically and mentally for ASLC would be a better choice. Expectations and aims are similar but they are totally different in the level of disappointments if they werent met. Somehow this hopeful feeling that have been lingering since the start of BMT is kinda giving me the drive to excel even more. Anyway at the end of the day, its not about doing the best in everything but giving my best in everything i do.
I cant describe how patriotic im feeling at the moment. I question myself why dont i juz sign on that dotted line. Im actually looking forward to field camps, missions, navigations and SOC(for real, i actually dreamt i did SOC under 9mins lor). The thought of it, sounds really fun. bah, maybe the monday blues have yet to come. >_>
Anyways, before i embark on my new trail of life.. To all my friends and family who have stood by me, i would like to take this opportunity to thank you for all the moral support and care that was given to me.
[[Against all odds]]
Engraved at 14:55, signed off shadie
