Sunday, December 30, 2007
2007 is coming to an end. It felt like forever. A slow roller coaster ride i would say. Well I've decided that a proper entry is well overdue to commemorate the year.
To be honest without this blog, i could barely remember what happened in 2007. Reading my past entries since October 2006, i could recall bits and pieces of memorable days in 3GDS and also the journey i had to who i am today. The path i chose wasn't easy. A daring move many whom I've spoked to during my recourse and sispec phase would say. Making a choice to change my vocation from service to combat wasn't done overnight. Nor did it took me long to dislike the life i had as a Man(in context of NS, non-commander). Well it did occur to me too that there's a price to pay such as extending my reservice term to age 55. (-_-);
I had to review my priorities, my values, my goals and expectations. Companionship? Friendship? Love? I was disconnected from society. Couldn't keep in pace with whats going on in almost anyone's life. Its undeniable that I've lost precious/irreplaceable time with my family and friends for the year. For not turning back. For shutting almost everyone out. I guess i was too afraid of the burden that might reside in my heart. Physical & mental tension could be overcome and heal overtime. But emotional ones, im afraid it would be juz too much for me to handle.
Ramadan this 2007, was the most memorable and fulfilling one I've ever had. The thought of going through the first month of ASLC while holding onto my fast really seemed impossible. Completing 10km runs, 32km route march, fast marches, river crossing, range, SOC rundowns, csb navigations, platoon deliberate attacks, etc2.. I could hardly believe that i did everything and held my thirst and hunger from dusk till dawn. Overcoming sth impossible? Well I believe it now.. Anything is possible, juz that the impossible takes a little longer. I'm quite surprise how determined i was back then. Such fighting spirit? I guess it wouldn't have existed if it wasn't for the people whom have walked into my life. Be it those who painted it dull or colored my days, Thank you for the support and for giving me the drive and purpose of making me into a better person each day.
"My eyes are windows to my soul, my believes forms the compass that will guide me through and my heart is the pacer of my life which will help me get to where i want."
- Quote from my blog entry on 150907.
Its only about 3 months back.. Such precious words i wrote would have easily been forgotten if i had not wrote it down somewhere while enduring through a challenging page of 2007.
Closing this entry to mark the year.. I'm sure that now i have an inspiring tale to share for the next generations of young sg sons that'll be coming to this sunny island. And so.. Goodbye 2007. I'll be embracing 2008 tmr night on the ferry back to tekong. COS duty on the 1st of Jan.
*Ini macamlah kite berjuang utk negara kan. bahh. thanks ah, Encik. I love my CSM. zzzzz.
Season greetings and Happy Holidays.
[[Where it started, that is where it'll end.]]
To be honest without this blog, i could barely remember what happened in 2007. Reading my past entries since October 2006, i could recall bits and pieces of memorable days in 3GDS and also the journey i had to who i am today. The path i chose wasn't easy. A daring move many whom I've spoked to during my recourse and sispec phase would say. Making a choice to change my vocation from service to combat wasn't done overnight. Nor did it took me long to dislike the life i had as a Man(in context of NS, non-commander). Well it did occur to me too that there's a price to pay such as extending my reservice term to age 55. (-_-);
I had to review my priorities, my values, my goals and expectations. Companionship? Friendship? Love? I was disconnected from society. Couldn't keep in pace with whats going on in almost anyone's life. Its undeniable that I've lost precious/irreplaceable time with my family and friends for the year. For not turning back. For shutting almost everyone out. I guess i was too afraid of the burden that might reside in my heart. Physical & mental tension could be overcome and heal overtime. But emotional ones, im afraid it would be juz too much for me to handle.
Ramadan this 2007, was the most memorable and fulfilling one I've ever had. The thought of going through the first month of ASLC while holding onto my fast really seemed impossible. Completing 10km runs, 32km route march, fast marches, river crossing, range, SOC rundowns, csb navigations, platoon deliberate attacks, etc2.. I could hardly believe that i did everything and held my thirst and hunger from dusk till dawn. Overcoming sth impossible? Well I believe it now.. Anything is possible, juz that the impossible takes a little longer. I'm quite surprise how determined i was back then. Such fighting spirit? I guess it wouldn't have existed if it wasn't for the people whom have walked into my life. Be it those who painted it dull or colored my days, Thank you for the support and for giving me the drive and purpose of making me into a better person each day.
"My eyes are windows to my soul, my believes forms the compass that will guide me through and my heart is the pacer of my life which will help me get to where i want."
- Quote from my blog entry on 150907.
Its only about 3 months back.. Such precious words i wrote would have easily been forgotten if i had not wrote it down somewhere while enduring through a challenging page of 2007.
Closing this entry to mark the year.. I'm sure that now i have an inspiring tale to share for the next generations of young sg sons that'll be coming to this sunny island. And so.. Goodbye 2007. I'll be embracing 2008 tmr night on the ferry back to tekong. COS duty on the 1st of Jan.
*Ini macamlah kite berjuang utk negara kan. bahh. thanks ah, Encik. I love my CSM. zzzzz.
Season greetings and Happy Holidays.
[[Where it started, that is where it'll end.]]
Engraved at 22:52, signed off shadie
